I have missed my Nana more in the last four and a half years than in the ones immediately following her death. I'm not sure why. While this pic always stays where it is, there are 2 others, family pics, that I sometimes have to put away for while because I miss her so deeply I sob each time I look at those 2 pics.
On facebook, my cousin has been posting lots of pics and 2 recently have my Nana in them. (One has me, Nana, my mom, her & another cousin in it and the other is of the first 3 born in the family with Nana). Seeing them is stirring up my heart again. (And annoying me since she identifies Nana as Grandma - Nana HATED being called Grandma & everyone knew/knows that).
My Dad died 30 years ago this month. Mom & Dad were divorced when I was 6 months old. I grew up with my Mom, my Nana and to an extent my Aunt. For the most part it was me, Mom & Nana. She was my grandmother and my parent.
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I had the same relationship with my gran Jo. I'm sure she feels your love for her. Sending you my love :)
I feel the same way about my Grandma too...her and my grandpa raised me right along with my mom and they were my parents also. My grandpa passed away when I was 19 and he was really my true father figure. I miss him so deeply still that I sometimes just stop and cry during the day when I think about him. it overwhelms me sometimes how much I miss him. My grandma is 79 right now and I told her she has to just live forever because I need her too badly for her to go yet.
Jo,
Who knows why we miss people more at certain times than othes. No rhyme or reason to emotion I suppose. I'm sure she's watching over you.
P.S. I had a Nana too, and Nanas are most definitely not Grandmas!
My Grams helped raise me too. My grandpop died when I was very little. Both of my grams are gone, most recently as December. Its interesting that you posted this because just the other night I drafted this long post about my Grandparents and how I miss them and how I'm getting through it. I wasn't sure if I'd post it or just keep it to myself.
What a lovely tribute to her. How lucky to have such memories and pictures. Take heart in knowing another angel is watching out for you.
Hi Jo, I have times where I really, really miss my Granny too. Sometimes I dream of her and I wake up feeling like we had a visit.
Yhank you all for your kind & supportive posts here! It helps when things are sometimes so hard.
Lizzi wrote: "I had a Nana too, and Nanas are most definitely not Grandmas!"
I could not agree more Lizzi!
Thuana, when Nana's in my dream I also feel live we've had a visit, but I usually end up crying in the dream or waking up crying because I miss her so! But, I'm ok with it.
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